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Sue Gaskell-Barlow

My name is Sue and have I got news for you! One of eleven children, the youngest daughter, 10th in line, I was born in 1946 on my mums living room carpet with only my gran in attendance (Mum was there too); a breech birth on Friday the 13th!

School was as tough as my birth and I was happy to leave school and begin work at Roll Royce as an errand girl. I was happy and 3 months later my dad my hero died. I was 15 and my world came tumbling down. By the time I was 19 the choices I made were to determine my role in life for the next 30 years. I left home at 16 and was married at 17. I had a miscarriage then my son Ivan was born and when he was 3 months old I became an orphan my mum died.

My life was one of giving caring and I loved it seeing other people happy became my driving force. I forgot about me in all of this and consequently I had a nervous breakdown as it was called back then. This was another life changing experience. My quest and my journey to look within myself for the answers as to why I felt so unhappy. Who was I? I became curious and determined to find answers and question everything. Depressed and a sense of emptiness seemed my normal demise. Prescription drugs which I had taken for decades keeping my depression suppressed, I now needed to question and face the pain I had hidden deep within my subconscious. The loss of my hero my rock my dad. Painful yes necessary absolutely because here was the key to freedom and I took it on willingly my life depended on it.

Moving on to the present what have I to offer you? HOPE A NEW LIFE OF JOY AND HAPPINESS. If you are ready to accept life is not working for you and realise there is a way forward welcome. At 73 years I am back at University and I have written 3 books. I am supporting people now helping them as they like me become their own best friend. Finally ready to ask the truth and finding answers to the difficult and truly vital question. Who am I?